“The soul, like a ship, when it is swallowed up by external waves, is overwhelmed by internal bilge water. Certainly, we are destroyed sometimes by external actions, and other times we are led astray by internal thoughts. Therefore, we must watch out for encounters with external spirits, and drain out the impurities of internal thoughts; and always be vigilant of thoughts, for they occur continuously. In reference to the external waves, when sailors cry out, often their salvation occurs by means of the nearest boat. But the bilge waters, often while the sea is silent and the sailors are sleeping, come in and drown them.”
“Do not be ashamed.”
People would think you were insane if you had multiple physical maladies and didn’t go to a physician for help. They’d think you were even crazier if you were trying to diagnose and heal yourself. Yet because our spiritual maladies and wounds are often invisible to the eye (either to our own or to that of others), we become pathologically comfortable lying in our own spiritual filth, covered in spiritual sores, and we avoid a great gift of Christ to his Church: forgiveness of sins in confession.
Do not be ashamed to begin the process of cleansing and healing.